Is there anyway that we can ever show someone how much they mean to us ? And if you did would they be more reluctant to leave us?
Can you ever really fully mourn someone you love? Will you ever rid yourself of the place that you reserved just for loving them?
Is suicide a final giving up of a life a person has no strength left to live? Or is just a painful slap in the face to everyone who has cared for them?
Can a person be so complex that you can only love them from afar without them ever really knowing how you feel? Can a person be loved even though they are so very difficult to understand?
I know it might seem crazy but to some of us life is a very confusing place to navigate through. Creating relationships with people is like stumbling through a maze where you constantly meet dead ends and double back on yourself. Treading lightly and cautiously hoping that the direction your travelling in will help you to get you to place you are heading. It forces you to question yourself and what the other person is saying. To interpret anothers actions and being so dam scared that you are not heading in the right direction for their approval and acceptance.
Ultimately, as human beings, we all just want to be loved; As a friend, sibling, child, parent, lover, spouse or any other entity we take on as part of a relationship. We are often told that we can never be loved without loving ourselves first. What if, in our capacity as a human being, we can not find it within ourselves to love ourselves? Does this mean that we are completely unlovable?
The mind has so many questions that no book can ever answer.
The problem of being a thinker is that your mind is forever asking questions that 'normal' people never ever have to contemplate. The human need for recognition and love can be extremely destructive and it is only through working internally on ourselves that the destruction can be repaired. Inner peace is vital to maintain any sort of semblance of normality. Society seems to celebrate 'normal' I think because most don't have enough depth of character to understand that there could even be any thing other than "normal".
ReplyDeleteFortunately, nothing very significant was achieved by normal so feel vindicated for being a "tortured thinker"it really is OK to not be 'normal' you just have to find kindred spirit!!! They are out there just be patient and they will come to you. Just believe.